LOVE WHERE YOU ARE

“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be”

“Nothing is absolute, everything changes, everything moves, everything revolutionizes, all flies and goes.”

“When something doesn’t feel right, it probably isn’t”

“There will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something that defies logic, upsets your plans, and may seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore the odds, ignore the complications, and just go for it.”

Putting into words all the emotions I’ve felt towards making this decision is almost impossible.

We are NOT moving to Arizona anymore. This is the easiest way for me to tell everyone including my friends and family. Ever since we knew Michael was getting Med-boarded there was no doubt in our mind that we would move back to Arizona for school and to raise our kids. As it is becoming ever so close; more and more doubt filled both of us. Uneasiness, worry, stress, and all around just feeling like it wasn’t right. One thing after another just wasn’t lining up, but we so badly wanted to live in Arizona we were ignoring all the signs that were telling us that that is not where we should be at this time.

About a month ago my mom sent us a house that they were going to look at with a separate guesthouse. That was the very first time the idea popped up to us that hmmm what about living in Richmond? We never danced with that idea before because of course Arizona is where we wanted to be. The feeling we both had towards Virginia was completely opposite of the feeling we had about Arizona. It just felt so right.

We realized that we wanted Arizona solely for selfish reasons such as friends and social life. Where as Virginia was the drastically smarter choice career wise and for our family.

The plan all along was to live with Michael’s parents in Gilbert, AZ until he gets accepted into a PA school so we will know where we will be and we can look into getting settled in near his PA school. It has now switched and we will be living with my parents in Richmond, Virginia while Michael finishes his last pre-req classes and applies to his Physician Assistant Medical Program. We have 4 schools right now that he is going to apply to; 2 in Arizona, 1 in Boise, Idaho, and one in Norfolk, Virginia. Since he missed this year’s application time frame because of the army, we have some time before he starts. We have absolutely no idea where we will end up going to school and don’t plan on making that decision until the time comes. So much changes in so little time I wouldn’t want to commit anywhere now because in a year who knows what we will be feeling, what we will want for our family, and where the Lord will want us.  

Since finalizing this decision in our heads and hearts, a huge weight has been lifted. I feel like I can breathe again and I wonder why it took us so long to realize that Arizona felt so wrong. Our guts know best I guess! So here's to some more time on the East Coast! 'Till we meet again Arizona!